I signed Jonathan up for WIC today. I have so much guilt associated with this!! I should just let it go.
Guilt 1. That I'm not exclusively breastfeeding anymore. About a month ago, he got thrush. OW! Thrush makes breastfeeding excruciating!! I wanted to quit then, but I stuck with it and when I couldn't stand another second, he got a bottle. Whew, I made it though. Then a little over week ago, he got it again!! I guess it never went away completely. So he got more bottles again. And I started some intense dieting, so all those combined made my milk go waaay down. Now we're doing formula during the day and breastfeeding at night. I try to tell myself that he's still getting the good stuff from breastfeeding even if it's not exclusive.
Guilt 2. That I even accepted WIC. We're not rich or even close to it, but when we budget and are careful we have enough for our needs. But formula is expensive.
Guilt 3. The ladies at WIC tried to make me feel guilty that my other kids (and I) aren't on it! Why, why, why? they asked. They started to make make me feel that I should put everybody on it. When I finally got out of there, away from the pressure, I remembered that No! They don't need WIC! I work hard to try to feed them well. They don't eat a lot of junk, but eat meat, fruits, veggies, grains, and dairy. So I don't need to feel pressure to put them on it. Sure, then we would have more money for other things, but good food is more important than toys or non-essentials. We have enough for our needs, and don't need all our wants.
What a day! Time to just get over it.
In other news, today is our 6th Anniversary! We'll be having a little family party tonight to celebrate. :)
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